Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
I'm kidding, lately it has felt that things have gotten more complicated (in a good way) and I haven't been able to keep in touch as much as I would like to with friends and family. So here's what's been going on.
Heather and Luke got Married!
After fearing that it would rain, a couple panick attacks and a very busy morning, Heather and Luke's wedding went off without a hitch at Southfork Park up Provo canyon. The fall colors were contrasted beautifully against Heather and Luke's color choices of black, white and red. They were married between two lovely trees whos leaves were yellow from the fall weather. The wedding officiant didn't really get that I was Heather's bridesmaid and so I ended up standing next to Luke during the wedding, ha. At any rate, Heather looked absolutely stunning in her dress and Luke, looking sharp in his tux, showed everyone how much he loves my best friend. This picture says it all, they were made for each other.
Ever since Len and I have been together, I have been heckling him to let me get a dog. For as long as I could remember, I have always wanted a big dog named Bentley. When I say big dog, I mean BIG, like a St. Bernard, a Great Dane or something like that. Since Len is allergic to basically everything on the planet, talking about pet ownership was always a sore subject in terms of talking about our future together. Mostly due to the fact that I'm pretty much a selfish brat and think I should get my way all of the time and I did (well, sort of). Playing around on ksl.com one night we saw this picture:After a days worth of debating we finally broke down and bought him, and he was the best thing we have ever spent our money on. He has the funniest personality, and seems to like living with us very much.
This semester of school for me is probably one of the hardest since I started back to school. Over the last few weeks, I have been plagued with thoughts of Post-Structuralist theory, drag queens, lesbian feminist theory, lesbian transsexual feminist theory, queer theory, radical gender movements, gender theory etc. infiltrating every thought that goes through my head changing my view of society and how it functions. Post-Structuralist theory is defined by theorists as everything about one's identity being constructed by society. There are no essential attributes that existed about your personality, your sexuality or your gender before you were born. In my queer theory class, I am learning that post structuralists believe that the idea of "gender" is a social construction hundreds of years old.
The ideas that boys should like the color blue and trucks and dirt and that girls should like pink and babies and dresses are arguably constructed in our psyche by learning from birth how to "Perform" one's gender. Theorists then go on to explain that gender, sexuality, or more importantly "sexual object choice" are much more fluid than anyone would like to admit, and creating categories creates and othering effect on those who do not fit in to this social construction. Furthermore if gender is a social construction, then people who do not neccessarily fit into the binary strucure of "boy" or "girl" ,or sexually speaking, "heterosexual" or "homosexual" are not in fact deviants in society but people existing or performing outside of this imaginary powerstructure. It's totally interesting but sometimes my head hurts from thinking in these terms.
Drag queens are particularly interesting because they, too are performing the gender "woman" much like many other women do. They are influential in proving the groundlessness and plasticity of gender.
It is completely demantalizing to think of what were previously concieved notions (at least post structurally thinking) of essential, natural things merely being social constructions created out of thin air with completely arbitrary titles slapped on them is enough to make one's head swim, but I love it. I'm pretty sure I am going to major in Gender Studies.
In addition to Queer Theory, I am also in an Americanization Class where I am studying different ethnic groups and their entrance into America over the course of history; a communications class, and another and much less daunting Human Sexuality class.